journal of my journey

now that i have my own computer, i know i should be blogging more.
i apologize *grin*
i find it hard to come up with subjects to blog about - i eat, i work, i play, and i sleep. i don't think that any of those things would be of much interest to you . . . but i have decided that i am going to try harder, and write more. so please, stick with me! :)
i decided to keep a journal this summer - about the things that the Lord has been teaching me, what I struggle with, and things i am thankful for. it has been so good for me, it helps me dissect the day and really take everything before the Lord . . . i take time each night to write in it before bed (i guess i get all written out from the journals . . that must be why i have nothing to say when i blog haha) it is my hope that one day, if i marry and am blessed with kids, that i can pass my journals on to them.
i plan on sharing just little bits of what i write with you guys as well . . . because that way i don't have to come up with new things to blog about :)

may 28th, 2007
"....i have come to see my weaknesses so clearly - my flesh still wants to rule, yet my heart grieves at the liberties it takes in my life. i hate my flesh. i hate my stupid pride, and my quick mouth. i hate my desire for pleasure - for success and material things. Lord, does the battle ever cease? does the enemy ever sleep? I ask, yet i already know the answer. no. and no. but the battle is not mine to fight, and i need to stop seeking control. I have alot left to learn . . . at times it overwhelms me, but now i find such comfort and reassurance know that it is His life in me which enables me . . . i don't have to pretend i'm someone i'm not, i don't have to pretend to be strong, wise or good . . . because His real, genuine, and active Spirit in me is everything i'm not - it is strong, wise and everything good, true and right . . ."

the Lord has really impressed upon my heart a thought for the summer - a lesson He has been slowly teaching me every day, in every circumstance that I face . . . I will wait upon the Lord.
Stay tuned for how He is teaching me that . . . ( are you in suspense? *grin*)